In secondary school and years after that, I had a journal where I would write poems or letters to myself. I would sometimes write lifetime plans and goals into my notebook just as a point of reference. I just formed this habit of putting anything in my mind onto paper. Most times I lose that paper anyway, but just writing it down helped organise those thoughts.
When my first daughter was born, I used to write letters to her. Save it in a folder in my email and just leave it there. Sometimes I will just write what we did for the day, what she did and her latest developments. I wanted her to know what she was doing on those given days. It didn't have to be detailed but just with a little information, I am sure she will welcome it as an adult. I would also write to her to remind her about how much I love her and I will always be there for her. Over time, my letters became less regular especially when I got busy doing other projects and then had another baby and then another one after that. For a while I didn't write anything at all because I didn't know what to write, how to write it and who to address it to. Should I write a letter to each child or should I generalise it to all my children?
Starting this blog for me was a way to document what is going on in my life right now. It's keeping up with the ins and outs of our lives. To write about what is around me, things that inspire me, things that make me laugh and my general thought process. My moods, my state of mind and life challenges. Moving forward I know it is something I would love to keep doing, not just for myself but also for my children and grandchildren. For them to remember me by when I am gone. And even as they grow and I am obviously still here, they could probably use it as a means to further understand their mum. For them to have it in writing how much I adore all of them. I smother my children with love everyday because I never want a day to go by where my children ever feel alone. Why? Because I've got them! It's so easy to be in a room full of people yet feel completely alone. To feel misunderstood. To feel judged. Sometimes even feeling not good enough. I never want my children to feel that way. I want them to always know that mummy loves them no matter what.... And daddy too of course. They are never alone. I will always understand them. I will never judge them and they are ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS good enough.
Another reason is, I know God has blessed me with a very active and imaginative brain and God is always putting ideas in it and words of encouragement to back it up. By actually having it on a blog as a back up means I can refer to it all the time. What I am working on is super amazing and it will all unfold with time.
Blogging for me is visual expression of my thoughts unfolding. I love life and I love laughing. Ride with me.
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